17 and me

Guess what? today is my birthday, my seventeenth birthday but it's just another day, in fact, is even more lifeless than usual days. I stupidly went to school because Yee Won asked me to go but end up she did not went herself. OK, fine with that but when I went to school the school is just so quite and dull. Practically none of my friends went to school expect for Wei Qi and Joe Ann. I must admit that I'm quite sad about this birthday. Dad didn't even say a happy birthday to me at all but at least mom still remembered my birthday....

The only thing that makes me feels better is the message from Charmaine at UK. It really made me felt someone cares about my birthday.... Cherie and those lil 3 ones also did quite a lot of preparations for my birthday presents as usual that makes me laugh always....

Whatever it is life still goes on.... Just will forget this stupid and meaningless day of the year tomorrow morning.... sigh is the only thing to do now... Why so sad 1 ar?? I also dono la....

Zoo Negara Trip

Charlotte, Cherie and Christal at the zoo entrance.

Guess how much is the entrance fee?? RM15 for an adult?!

I enjoy being a children long long time ago... lolDaddy and mommy taking picture with me..

erm... I meant the giraffe (my siblings)... haha...This is a Sumatran tiger... It's swims!!! love him lots!!
^^Moo...
It makes me think about moo ice-cream that is baned my our
Minister of health... sob...It's me with some flamingos....

Cherie with the rhinoceros.... on top of her head?!

This is the picture I love the most! At the Wall's Cafe! =)

So, Zoo Negara is the only 'holiday' I went for this raya holiday. It's been quite a long time since I've last visit the zoo negara. Very tired now but the lil ones did enjoy. I guess this is the first family trip after Charmaine left us and will be my last trip before my SPM comes.

Kirstin Wong just reminded me just now that SPM is just 40 days left! So scary number! That's why I never dare to countdown. Oh gosh, I really need to get studying already. I'm totally freaked out now! So far I've got 2 of my results in my trials of SPM. I got A2 for Chinese and A1 for accounts la... but I'm not satisfied about both of it. I really hope that I can get As for those subject that I'm good in. I don't think I'll get A for my add maths and science subjects. 3 more days to school reopen. I hope I can get my results but meanwhile I'm scared about it also. No matter what it is, I've tried my best and need to look forward to the real SPM!!!

谢谢你

你比我更了解我自己

你比我更学会珍惜

多庆幸一路有你

让我前方的路更清晰

那一年的冬天

我们在伦顿的大街上

我们肩并肩

走过未知的明天

谢谢你 陪我走过春夏和秋冬

谢谢你 让我人生不再一样

我会珍惜我们的回忆

当你追逐梦想旅途

我会在这里支持你

用微笑欢送

迎接美好的懈逅

我知道 这一切都为了你好

可是一次又一次让自己崩溃

请放心 别担心 我会过得好

because you are in my heart

今年的这一天

你将独自飞往那一边

机场的离别

是人生的起点

谢谢你 陪我走过春夏和秋冬
谢谢你 让我人生不再一样
我会珍惜我们的回忆
当你追逐梦想旅途
我会在这里支持你
用微笑欢送
迎接美好的懈逅

I wrote this song recently. This is the first song that I've compose completely. Quite funny but I want to show this to my sister, Charmaine that is studying in UK now. Go, go, fighting!!! Yeah!!!

11th Day Without You

Cherie asked me yesterday, do I know what day is today? I said no. She replied and say it's been 11 days without you, Ah Che. The whole family miss you very much. The crying period is over but we miss you everyday. Waiting for you to online is part of our daily life now. You've change all of us. You are part of us and will always be. Mom told me that she intent to call you once every week. Your class is starting next week and all of us might be busy again. Oh gosh, the song Mr. Flower is playing in the media player. Makes me more emotional. Sa Rang Hae. That's what I want to tell you now. Go, go, fighting! Let's fight for our dreams and goals everyday to the maximum in two parts of this world.

I miss you....

3 more SONY BMG CD's down the list

When is Lee Hom's album releasing?? I wanna get it di le... Lee hom's latest album "What's wrong with Me" really tells a lot about the recent Lee Hom. I find him changing quite funny in a way and that album tells me everything! I want that album!

Plus, I wanna get 柯有纶 3rd album! But it's only releasing on november I guess. I've become a true fan of Alan Kuo ever since his 1st album. He is one of those that work on chinese rock. Love him lots! His songs are just so touching, but still Lee Hom is priority! LOL

萧宏仁 is the 3rd album that I wanna get. He's quite an attitude singer. He didn't want to go to 超级星光大道 and get popularity. Plus, he compose his own song. So, I must 支持创作歌手!!!

OMG! Something similar among them 3 is that they all are from SONY BMG! Gosh! I'm being super Sony fan soon! haha... but nevermind, as long as those singers are great, who cares where they are from?!

But something I'm worry and scared is that I'm buying too many albums. I only buy original CD's and I'm kinda addicted to it now. But I really find it worth because you can know the whole album and the quality is good. Plus point for original CD's is that you get to see those beautiful pictures of theirs and see how every singer made their album into a piece of artwork! Yeah!

When I talk about collecting original CD's, it's actually kinda my hobby and my interest. But friends around me will think why. Haiz... But suddenly it reminds me about 张栋梁... eww... but I remember when is was still in Astro singing competition, he said that he loves to collect original CD's too! That's the only think I like about him I guess.... Haha... other than that, like his dance moves sucks man! 爱的很疯狂.... then push his jacket to the back... yucks!

You can do it!

Wa! Long month of trials is finally over but not SPM yet... haha

Everybody seems to be 'saturated' with all studies di but I am looking forward to really revise kao kao and do my best when SPM comes... sot 1 right?!

Haiz... but I'm still a normal person... I'll be lazy for this weekend and start studying next week onwards. U guys reading this sure think I'm super crazy. I'm not, I'm just more hardworking than ordinary friends around me.
Not to say I love studying but that what I need to fulfill. That part of the life that the society gave me and what the society expect from me.
I always seems to be studying extra hard ( compared to other friends ) but it turns out the results of mine and others are more likely the same. Actually there is 2 answers for that question.

1. I'm not as smart as a lot of friends around me. I feel blessed that I have the opportunity to study in a good class a.k.a. smart class but at the same time I need to work extra hard and pay twice the effort in order to achieve the same level of 'smartness' during exam as others. I'm not trying to be humble but that how I 'survive' in my class currently.
2. I don't go for tuitions like others. So many friends of mine go for tuitions nearly every subject! Bio, Chem, Physics, Add Maths, BM and more.... But I don't! Perhaps that's the difference but I don't want my life to be more lifeless that attending tuition after tuition...

Whatever it is I never regret what I did and I will not regret what will I do next. Like what Wei Qi always say 'life live without regrets, but lessons'. =D

I told myself at the beginning of the year that I wanna balance up my studies and all the co-curriculum. So, there is still 3 more month for me to prove to myself that I can do it! Believe in what I believe is what I do and never question my believes because

I BELIEVE MYSELF!

离别

这是我第一次面对朋友父亲离去。面对着自己的‘姐妹’的父亲离世，除了感到遗憾，更为她家人感到担心、难过。

我妈昨天更是因为打羽毛球跌到了，膝盖跌烂了，头也撞上车轮。幸亏的是伤势不严重，可说是不幸中的大幸了。比起我妈妈，我朋友的父亲就没那么幸运了。

他因为地上滑就跌伤了，还跌伤了头部。那是上个星期日的事情，那天还在商场上碰见他们一家人。哎，只可以说老套的那一句人生本无常啊！

很想对我朋友做点什么，但又害怕加重她的伤感。在这里，很想告诉每个人要好好照顾自己。人生其实很脆弱。爱自己，更要珍惜你身边的每一个亲人、朋友、甚至邻居。。。一个问候，有时候真的可以brighten up someone's day!
不要害羞、不要再等，因为nobody knows what will happen next!!!

我很庆幸，因为 I'm LIVE-ING. . . . .