Thank You!

I logged in to my friendster and

did check out the pictures that I uploaded last time

and this really hold my breath,

and think,

how wonderful my secondary life was,

because I have friends,like you,

that made my journey something special and meaningful,

to be part of my greatest memories of all,

that I may retell to my kids in future,

I WAS SOMEONE BEFORE...

Thank you Jing,
to be part of my memories,
its been a really special opportunity in my life,
to be able to go through all kinds of bitter sweet with you,
you're truely a sweetest person I've ever met,
and I wanna tell you I'll be there for you,
anytime,
anywhere,
I'm not lesbian, but just wanna let you know,
that I really sayang you...
love ya dear!

I Miss You so much!!!
sob sob...
don't you ever dare to forget about me!

Passionate to be a leader?

I went to some friends blogs, and I found many of them is passionate about something... but in deep I don't think I'm passionate about anything.... really.... not ANYTHING....

Lately, I've always been thinking about what should I study, who should I be, where should I head to during SAM and after SAM, and most importantly, WHO AM I? I don't even know what I'm worth.... sounds quite dummy but there's a little voice that tells me that I want to be someone BIG, someone SPECIAL, someone INFLUENTIAL ... but I don't know where and when will I'm going to be able all these 'dreams' but I think that makes me a L-E-A-D-E-R.

There's always new opportunity pops out in my life, lately, for example, today, there's a MODELING SEARCH competition or hunt camp sort of thing... of course people will ask someone that is tall... like me... btw the objective of the event is to start off a star life.... I don't know do I have a star quality, but I like to sing. live had not pulled me out from music, but did made me being outdated... another very good reason for me not going to this is I don't have the popularity as a star or someone popular, I was never a popular person....

How am I going to be a leader? I don't know, at least that's the most I could think out of myself.... for now, I can only work hard enough to get myself get out of this country, by a scholarship, or else I don't think I will have any chance to open my eyes and learn what's life or more importantly, how I want my life to be... I WANT SCHOLARSHIP!!! or I should say

I NEED SCHOLARSHIP,
100% SCHOLARSHIP
TO OVERSEAS!!!!

勇敢往前飞

我就要　勇敢往前飞
过往的伤痛　不再理会
无法再用力挣扎　屏着呼吸
放开才真正得到机会


我就要　勇敢往前飞
闭上眼　不让自己流泪
翻开美丽的日记　重新准备
开始故事的另一页
我不后悔
我不后退

失败

今天，自己感觉彻底的失败。因为在同一天里，我失败了两次。。。

1. 看着2008年的Fourian Magazine，真的真的很伤心，里面竟然一个华文文章都没有。。。Ainaa 还称呼我是 Head Of Articles，真可笑。里面我用心搜集的文章一张都不在， 反而那些 ‘她较熟悉的朋友’ 的文章都出现了。。。那当然，我的文章是一定不在的啦。。。对今年的校刊，我只可以说是我最不满意的一本校刊了。 不管真么样，我还是得说一句，今年的照片很有素质，毕竟Ainaa and Farhanis are great photographers。。。 除了这个，我也没什么好说的了。。。 其他的由你自己来评吧！
2. ＳＡＭ　Ｓｔｕｄｅｎｔ　Ｃｏｕｎｃｉｌ　Ｅｌｅｃｔｉｏｎ，　我输了。。。虽然说我不是很在乎到底可不可以拿到　Ｃｏｍｍｉｔｔｅｅ　Ｍｅｍｂｅｒ　的位子，但看着其他没作　Ｆｌｙｅｒｓ　而得到位子的人，感觉自己的人气有点差。。。心里酸酸的。。。

不管真么样，事情已经是事实，我无法改变的定局。。。我自可以让自己再努力，再卓越一点，那些失败也许就不会再重复。。。