Saturday, December 05, 2009

Pratha anyone?!

Just another day of stonning at home. Cooked lunch for younger sisters =) This was my first time making pratha, so there are much more improvement can be done. But, according to my sisters, it was good! TQTQ. I'm sure making more soon ^^


What? We're making pratha? R u sure?!


It's actually quite easy. First, you need a pratha bread and toast it ^^!

Second, cook your fillings. I've choose to use chicken sausages.

Third, have a sauce. I'm lazy with that. Just got some canned tomato sauce. XD

Lastly, put your fillings into your pratha. Add some cheese too ^^!!!


THEN.....





WALAA!!!!!!! Yum yum =)

Happy cooking yo!

Guess tomorrow is another stonning weekend.... Wanna go to bed now but my tummy is still filled with the awesome french fries my dad bought back. It was really satisfying though. ^^

Friday, December 04, 2009

Practicing law after a law degree? PLZ think twice...

My blog is being toooooooooo rusty.... Finally had the mood back to blog. Or should I say having the time to be emo?!





BTW, what suprise me was that my blog got a comment from a SPM student (about a month ago) thanking me for my SPM bio notes tips.... haha.... well at least it made me felt that my blog wasn't that insignificant.... :D



I was just reading back the advise I got from my cousin sister which was a law student a few years back. For those that might not know yet, I've enrolled myself for a twinning Law Degree with Reading University, UK offered by Taylors.



That means that I'm going to the Lakeside Campus next year!



Gosh, can't wait till the open day comes. But, one thing I'm worrying is that we are the guinea pigs :S




OK, so back to the story. She was telling me that Law is a very difficult subject to study and requires a great deal of planning, professionalism, hard work, money, research and networking. Great determination, good grades and skill alone is not enough.


Back in schooling days, she was actively participating in debates, public speaking, involving in human right events and stuff that a law student would be doing. Her dream was to be barrister. She has enjoyed her Law degree but when she went through barring, trying to get qualifications to be a certified lawyer, she saw so many reality, which are shameful ones, about law today.


She told me that legal profession is actually about obeying the law, respecting seniority and using the law to find solutions, that sometimes is not justice at all. It is one of those professions where a judge can call you up to his bench to declare that you are wasting his time and need to be so much more intelligent to carry on with a case.


Friends of hers who are still in the dream of being a lawyer has struggled much financially. She said that being a lawyer does not earn enough to even pay up your own debts for the first, not few, but the first 15 years of time. It was heartbreaking for me to hear that statement, although my passion was not to practice law. For the first time I felt that legal profession is like other professions such as government servents that are doing so ambitious and important job, yet not well respected by public.


Guess I should now just pack my bags and throw away even the thinking of MIGHT pratice law and focus on how law triggers thoughts and grow my knowledge to be a wiser person instead.




So, after reading of so much trouble being in law, you might wonder why did I choose law? Many are shocked when I told and YES, I WAS AMAZED BY MYSELF HAVING THE COURAGE TO STUDY LAW! Especially knowing I'm not the person that can sit still for hours reading. But, the real intention of mine studying law was to widen my perspective of things around me. I felt that law has allowed me to think outside of the box, to know the alternative solutions of something.


I do LOVE LAW, but until the current moment, I think I still stays as a LAW
STUDENT THAT DON'T INTEND TO PRACTICE LAW FOR MY LIFE!

haha... you may laugh....
it's really funny to me.... XD =.='

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Obama's Speech on Climate Change

Following is the prepared text of President Obama's speech on 22 September 2009 to the United Nations General Assembly, as released by the White House.


Good morning. I want to thank the Secretary-General for organizing this summit, and all the leaders who are participating. That so many of us are here today is a recognition that the threat from climate change is serious, it is urgent, and it is growing. Our generation's response to this challenge will be judged by history, for if we fail to meet it – boldly, swiftly, and together – we risk consigning future generations to an irreversible catastrophe.

No nation, however large or small, wealthy or poor, can escape the impact of climate change. Rising sea levels threaten every coastline. More powerful storms and floods threaten every continent. More frequent drought and crop failures breed hunger and conflict in places where hunger and conflict already thrive. On shrinking islands, families are already being forced to flee their homes as climate refugees. The security and stability of each nation and all peoples – our prosperity, our health, our safety – are in jeopardy. And the time we have to reverse this tide is running out.

And yet, we can reverse it. John F. Kennedy once observed that "Our problems are man-made, therefore they may be solved by man." It is true that for too many years, mankind has been slow to respond to or even recognize the magnitude of the climate threat. It is true of my own country as well. We recognize that. But this is a new day. It is a new era. And I am proud to say that the United States has done more to promote clean energy and reduce carbon pollution in the last eight months than at any other time in our history.

We're making our government's largest ever investment in renewable energy – an investment aimed at doubling the generating capacity from wind and other renewable resources in three years. Across America, entrepreneurs are constructing wind turbines and solar panels and batteries for hybrid cars with the help of loan guarantees and tax credits – projects that are creating new jobs and new industries. We're investing billions to cut energy waste in our homes, buildings, and appliances – helping American families save money on energy bills in the process.
We've proposed the very first national policy aimed at both increasing fuel economy and reducing greenhouse gas pollution for all new cars and trucks – a standard that will also save consumers money and our nation oil. We're moving forward with our nation's first offshore wind energy projects. We're investing billions to capture carbon pollution so that we can clean up our coal plants. Just this week, we announced that for the first time ever, we'll begin tracking how much greenhouse gas pollution is being emitted throughout the country. Later this week, I will work with my colleagues at the G20 to phase out fossil fuel subsidies so that we can better address our climate challenge. And already, we know that the recent drop in overall U.S. emissions is due in part to steps that promote greater efficiency and greater use of renewable energy.

Most importantly, the House of Representatives passed an energy and climate bill in June that would finally make clean energy the profitable kind of energy for American businesses and dramatically reduce greenhouse gas emissions. One committee has already acted on this bill in the Senate and I look forward to engaging with others as we move forward.

Because no one nation can meet this challenge alone, the United States has also engaged more allies and partners in finding a solution than ever before. In April, we convened the first of what have now been six meetings of the Major Economies Forum on Energy and Climate here in the United States. In Trinidad, I proposed an Energy and Climate Partnership for the Americas. We've worked through the World Bank to promote renewable energy projects and technologies in the developing world. And we have put climate at the top of our diplomatic agenda when it comes to our relationships with countries from China to Brazil; India to Mexico; Africa to Europe.
Taken together, these steps represent an historic recognition on behalf of the American people and their government. We understand the gravity of the climate threat. We are determined to act. And we will meet our responsibility to future generations.

But though many of our nations have taken bold actions and share in this determination, we did not come here today to celebrate progress. We came because there is so much more progress to be made. We came because there is so much more work to be done.

It is work that will not be easy. As we head towards Copenhagen, there should be no illusions that the hardest part of our journey is in front of us. We seek sweeping but necessary change in the midst of a global recession, where every nation's most immediate priority is reviving their economy and putting their people back to work. And so all of us will face doubts and difficulties in our own capitals as we try to reach a lasting solution to the climate challenge.

But difficulty is no excuse for complacency. Unease is no excuse for inaction. And we must not allow the perfect to become the enemy of progress. Each of us must do what we can when we can to grow our economies without endangering our planet – and we must all do it together. We must seize the opportunity to make Copenhagen a significant step forward in the global fight against climate change.

We also cannot allow the old divisions that have characterized the climate debate for so many years to block our progress. Yes, the developed nations that caused much of the damage to our climate over the last century still have a responsibility to lead. And we will continue to do so – by investing in renewable energy, promoting greater efficiency, and slashing our emissions to reach the targets we set for 2020 and our long-term goal for 2050.

But those rapidly-growing developing nations that will produce nearly all the growth in global carbon emissions in the decades ahead must do their part as well. Some of these nations have already made great strides with the development and deployment of clean energy. Still, they will need to commit to strong measures at home and agree to stand behind those commitments just as the developed nations must stand behind their own. We cannot meet this challenge unless all the largest emitters of greenhouse gas pollution act together. There is no other way.

We must also energize our efforts to put other developing nations – especially the poorest and most vulnerable – on a path to sustainable growth. These nations do not have the same resources to combat climate change as countries like the United States or China do, but they have the most immediate stake in a solution. For these are the nations that are already living with the unfolding effects of a warming planet – famine and drought; disappearing coastal villages and the conflict that arises from scarce resources. Their future is no longer a choice between a growing economy and a cleaner planet, because their survival depends on both. It will do little good to alleviate poverty if you can no longer harvest your crops or find drinkable water.
That is why we have a responsibility to provide the financial and technical assistance needed to help these nations adapt to the impacts of climate change and pursue low-carbon development.

What we are seeking, after all, is not simply an agreement to limit greenhouse gas emissions. We seek an agreement that will allow all nations to grow and raise living standards without endangering the planet. By developing and disseminating clean technology and sharing our know-how, we can help developing nations leap-frog dirty energy technologies and reduce dangerous emissions.


As we meet here today, the good news is that after too many years of inaction and denial, there is finally widespread recognition of the urgency of the challenge before us. We know what needs to be done. We know that our planet's future depends on a global commitment to permanently reduce greenhouse gas pollution. We know that if we put the right rules and incentives in place, we will unleash the creative power of our best scientists, engineers, and entrepreneurs to build a better world. And so many nations have already taken the first steps on the journey towards that goal.

But the journey is long. The journey is hard. And we don't have much time left to make it. It is a journey that will require each of us to persevere through setback, and fight for every inch of progress, even when it comes in fits and starts. So let us begin. For if we are flexible and pragmatic; if we can resolve to work tirelessly in common effort, then we will achieve our common purpose: a world that is safer, cleaner, and healthier than the one we found; and a future that is worthy of our children. Thank you.


I personally think this is an empowering piece of speech and shall not only be heard but be also followed. We really don't have much time left to change before it's too late. Nobody knows when is too late but when if we already knew it's too late, then we will be regretting of not doing anything already.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

敢爱敢恨,活在当下,是件幸福的事

刚才,看了一位姐妹的blog, 知道她又有男朋友了,那一点也不奇怪。咳,谁叫她就是那么的感情丰富嘛?!但,她这个男朋友嘛,是做翻版的,开始时,真的会为我这位姐妹担心。她不顾一切的爱着她,不管众人的批评,勇敢的爱一场。就单单是这一点,就足以让我佩服了,因为我不会有那么大的勇气,去承担世俗的眼光。

婉,我想告诉你,我其实看好你们俩,因为你们是真的彼此相爱着。你们的爱情没有错,只是不懂你的人,会一再地伤害你们俩,因为毕竟你们是有距离的。我在此衷心的祝福,你能改变你们俩的生活。人可以穷,但不能穷心智。我想这句话,你明白吧?有理想,有目标的人,一定能成功的。我还是那一句话,千万不要放弃学业。就算你知道你不用有一张文凭,也可以闯出一番事业;也还要记得世界是现实而残酷,因为他们只看文凭。再一次的祝福你们俩回有美好的未来。加油咯!Go, go, fighting!!!

敢爱敢恨,活在当下,是件幸福的事,不是吗?
璇子

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

真的好久没有一个人呆在家,毫无烦恼的尽情享受自我的空间。

现在已经是八月了,离 trials 的时间也是仅仅的3个星期罢了。 我知道我该读书了,但心却想被丢向那无止尽的大海,四处漂流。

烦恼嘛,我想连佛祖都会有,但又有谁想拥有它呢?我现在只想把烦恼抛诸脑后,我行我数!

人,只要活得开心就好,不是吗?


未知的明天,如果少了自信,又剩下些什么?

Sunday, August 02, 2009

WOW! It's August

WAW! Amazingly I've been surviving in SAM (Self Abuse Matriculation). I know this might not be the worse nightmare in life but for a 18 year old girl, it is quite a big achievement. I've already reach the preparation stage for my final exam and collecting my last few internal assessment marks. And as things go along, it just get harder and harder.

This week itself I'm going to have my Legal Studies Extended Response Test 3 and MOOT COURT is starting on FRIDAY!! OMG, I'm so freaking out because I'm 100% not prepared... Erm, expect for the dressing part. I've volunteer to be the prosecutor of the case- the robbery case. Sounds cool huh? You ain't know what work is waiting for you man! Trying to figuring out what to charge the accuses is already a challenge. Next up, you have to prepare everything, yes, I meant everything you need to argue in court- showing your evidence, examine your witness, beware of inadmissible evidence, etc, etc...... the list is like never ending!!!

Why did I get myself into this trouble? Because I want to testify do I really wanna to a law degree. So, this is the best time for me to figure out should I do law.... =)

Question for you: ' Cheryl is doing a law degree.' - Does that sound weird to you??

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

我相信天有眼,正义的存在。总有一天,他们会后悔自己所犯下的过错。

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Check out Tun Mahathir's blog!

http://www.chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/

Check out Tun Mahathir's blog!

I'm not saying this because I'm a fan of him. I was kind of too young when he was in office. But certainly he did great things to Malaysia.

BTW, my point here is there is a poll about choosing Science and Maths in English or BM.
So vote for your sisters, brothers, little juniors, relatives and all Malaysian kids. Just stick to English and keep progressing la?! Can't we just settle the fact it's for a better future of all Malaysians?

WE NEED TO MAKE THINGS CHANGE IF MALAYSIA REALLY WANT TO GLOBALISE AND COMPETE WITH OTHERS!!!

No matter how painful will this be for some kids, especially for Malay background speakers, LET'S JUST DO IT FOR BETTER FUTURE!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Haze, H1N1 flu and what's next on the list?

I came to college quite late today, about 7.30 a.m. Fetch by mom and I can see clearly how bad is the haze now. The smell is just awful and duh! BAD FOR HEALTH!

On the radio, the reporter says the H1N1 reported cases has shoot up to 144 cases. I wonder how much will it be tomorrow. It seems to be that Malaysia is the only country that is so conscious about the flu because in UK and Australia places, you can't even get mask in ordinary pharmacy. That really shows how much their people care about the flu. People continues to travel and it seems that this flu will be no big deal to all countries soon. Yet, Thailand had confirmed their 3rd death due to H1N1 flu this morning. So, will H1N1 kill all of us soon? Not really, the haze can be another contributor to YOUR FUTURE DEATH REASON.

It's difficult to live in our Mother Earth now and I'm not sure what can happen next if people continue to MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS BUT NOT THE EARTH!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Power of the Rain

OK, I'm not talking about the Korean famous star, Rain but really the rain, a gift of nature.... R-A-I-N

Yesterday, finally it rained.... wow, after for how long my dear? Malaysia had been very very hot for months already and I had forgotten when was the last time it rained... I sighed many times yesterday, for joy and disappointment.

For joy, it's because finally it rained. Especially with the haze that we get now, it's not as bad as previous years and hopefully it wouldn't get that bad. This is another sign of GLOBAL WARMING! It's a WARNING! Can't everybody just see it? Everyone can make a difference, but only I can make a greater one my own here.

As for disappointment, of course is telling myself what is happening in this world, to our planet Earth that has caused 'her' to suffer so much and perhaps this is what GOD want us to suffer and force us humans to wake up and stop being so SELFISH! Where will this lead us to? Oh gosh.... Rain, wash away all sin, can you?

Wanna ask you a question, didn't you feel great after the rain? not complaining how hot is the weather?

Sunday, June 07, 2009

SMILE, SMILE, SMILE! YOU'RE GREAT!



This video makes me feel like saying,
"The world is great, you're great! Everybody is just AWESOME!!!"

Lyrics that you need it's all here!!!

http://www.lyricsplugin.com/

I've just discover this AWSOME SOFTWARE that is FREE, FAST TO DOWNLOAD AND SUPPERRR COOL!!!!!

Most lyrics, chinese, english and malay that you need are there.
You can even contribute if you want.... for those that don't have.... maybe some local songs wouldnt have lyrics but majority of them have it here ready for you!!!

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Hey, would you want to use such butter stick?

Imagine you and your silly brother using the same stick... after he sneeze on his bread?! well, I think it's why it's not on the market.... =p

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Dragon Boat Festival

Happy Dragon Boat Festival everyone!

actually I'll rather call it Qu Yuan Memorial Day....

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Come back, Cheryl

2009 had been a hard year for me, I've lost myself. I am living but not a lively one. I don't feel contented in my life. I don't know where am I heading to and why am I who I am now. This is such an awful feeling. I miss my life. I don't know where is it.


当初的那份感动已离你远去
剩下的就只有遗憾吗?

Friday, May 22, 2009

S-O-L It's Hoooolidayyyy!!!!

SHOUT OUT LOUD! IT'S HOLIDAY

Gosh, this holiday is real long from the last and years have not been this fast in my life, everything around is just moving too fast and memories just slipped away before you can ever realise....

OK, so I did do well about my last Semester 1 paper, Accounting Studies. I know MZ will so wanna kill me if she ever reads this. But, I don't really wanna do well for Accounting Studies. Haiz, now I wonder whether I may be an accountant or not, because all this while in my dictionary, it's a HUGE no-no to persue an 'Accounting& Finance' degree.... Hmm... Don't know how di...

Me and 2 Mel-s when to Peppercorn today.... AGAIN... after Legal Studies Consultation with Mr. David. I must say he's so dedicated to his work, well perhaps like what my mother said, 'Oh, such a young lecturer, NO WONDER...'. So, we ate lunch and 3 of us borrowed stories books and aim to read it during this 2 weeks holiday... As you may know, I'M SO NOT A READING PERSON, I HARDLY READ A BOOK!

Too sad to say ah Miao needs to Sleep and pack her bags to head back to Kuching. I think she should be landing by now di... Hehe..... So only me and Mel went to Pyramid. We wanted to watch 'Night at the Meuseum' but then we walked too slow and missed the show. Instead, we went shopping.... Great shopping man! I spent so much... x_x officially broke here.... anybody wanna belanja me makan or something?!

so, Happy Holidays to all SAM Students..... Enjoy and relax, I bet for the last time before nightmare comes..... =.=

Saturday, April 25, 2009

从前的我,好像 ‘死了’

我活在一个
死世界
未来。。。
我看不清楚
或许 从前
太美丽
现在
人性的丑陋
捏碎 我
小小的心灵

学习孤单、寂寞
是我的 现在式

请问 小姐、先生
人是否可以
依赖着过去式
快乐的活下去?

Friday, April 10, 2009

Long Lost Blog

LOL.... for those of you that actually reads my blog, I'm sorry that I've not been updating recently.... and now I'm at a cafe called Chatters because MY STREAMYX IS DOWN... don't ask why, it's just streamyx people?!

OK, BTW life it's full with challenges lately, but there's so many things to learn each day and I did a lot of adaptation in this past 3 months. To me, it's really a journey to be a better person, to become a more knowledgeable person. I wanna say Thank You to my dear 2 friends in L2, May Zhen and Ah Miao (Melvina) , without you girls, I wouldn't know how miserable my college life will be..... I'm really looking forward to what will 3 of us go through this year and hope we will create great memories in life.... ^^ love ya!

and of course, I miss my old girl friends, I hope they miss me too.... Jing Yi, Joe Ann, Yee Won, Kirstin and many more.... Oh Gosh... Suddenly I wanna hug everyone that I know and say I LOVE YOU!!! LOL... K la end of the emo time and thank you if anybody reads this and please leave me a message so I know my blog is actually alive... LOL.... TQ!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Biggest April Fool..... Blame SAM programme!

yes, it's once in a year- APRIL FOOL but I didn't get any fools from others.... expect for me fooling others about legal ER test... then the biggest fool start to come about...

A good friend of mine sms-ed me this morning, asking whether am I interested to go to watch F1 Malaysia GP if he can manage to get tickets for me (obviously for free la...)

My first reaction is, OMG! F1! The only sports that I watch on ESPN or other sports channel.... duh! My brain, body and soul all said 100% YES, YES, Y-E-S!!!

We went on discussing about how many ticket and bla-bla-bla.... Until the told me that he reserved 4 tickets for me, there's where problem comes....

I didn't realise when was F1 Malaysia GP actually, because I've been super busy with my studies, SAM programme, which practically eats up all my time.... it's seriously a FULL-TIME basis programme man!

Let me define what is FULL-TIME meant in SAM,
  1. it requires you to choose 5 subjects, each an hour a day (that means you see your lecturers EVERYDAY!!!) which means being in college from 8 a..m. - 3 p.m. or 4 p.m.
  2. homework are given on daily basis, practically having assignment, homework, presentation and so many other things, which takes up your evening and night time
  3. read up before the lecturer's start their lecturers.... which takes up your midnights or early morning
  4. do revision because there's always a test around the corner.... which takes up your weekends
so, DO I HAVE TIME TO KNOW WHEN IS F1?


Ans: NO! I don't even have time to watch TV or read newspaper... perhaps 5 minutes TV break or reading the headline of newspaper 0nly....

Continue with the story.... then my mom told me that we are going back to Ipoh for ching ming this weekend.... I started wondering when is F1 suddenly..... when I looked up on the net, you know what it says?

IT'S THIS WEEKEND!!! (TOO.... )

This is still killing me now... but there's still homework that requires my attention after I posted this post....

Moral of the story:

Who to blame for having such
a big April Fool?
blame SAM PROGRAMME!!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Earth Hour 2009

Help save the Earth, even though
"I'm just one person"






Saturday, 28th March 2009
8.30 p.m. - 9.30 p.m.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Getting A's = Getting $ Money $

Well, today was the SPM results day, and guess what I didn't have any anxious feelings until I saw my slip....

OMG! I got 9A's and 3B's.... I never ever dreamt that I could achieve this high...

Analyzing of my results:

  1. Bahasa Melayu - 2A (quite sad cuz I had confidence to get 1A)
  2. Bahasa Inggeris - 1A
  3. Pendidikan Moral - 2A ( well... at least I didn't let Miss Foo down... I miss her classes man)
  4. Sejarah - 1A ( I still don't get how I get so high for Sejarah?!)
  5. Mathematics - 1A
  6. Additional Mathematics - 3B ( wow! pretty well done man!)
  7. Prinsip Perakaunan - 1A ( yes! SPM accounts its better than SAM accounts... -.-)
  8. Physics - 3B ( not bad at all... =D)
  9. Chemistry - 3B ( oh gosh... Kirstin, JJ, Jing Yi.... I didn't fail!!!)
  10. Biology - 2A ( interest do matters a lot... miss bio classes so much... sob)
  11. Bahasa Cina - 2A ( this was the part that made me nearly fainted)
  12. EST - 2A
well, my results really shows that I'm not a science person, apart from my interest on Biology... ^^
I really was shocked about my Chinese and was so happy that I can actually tell my Chinese teacher I got A!!! got face to see her now... =D


After the joy, friends around me also started to celebrate and there are some that went back with disappointment... don't know how to react actually but hope they will get through in life...

Something I was happy was for Shawn, HE PASSED! he is eligible to get SPM cert.. good for him....


OK now down to the MONEY PART:

  • Daddy gave me RM 50 to go to yam cha with friends at first cuz I didn't want to go home but end up I didn't go anywhere and came back home... watch TV... and blogging now ^^
  • Ah Po gave me RM 100 as she promised to all grandchildren to give them RM10 for scoring each A in their exam.... but I think its because she don't have change that's why I got RM 10 extra... LOL
  • Ah Gong appear in a sudden to see Ryan and Aunt Pooi so I got extra RM 50 from him
  • Mummy say we are going to Sunway tonight so I bet she will buy something for me also... as reward

OK, moral of the story:
Must the society place reward, a.k.a. MONEY with good results? Why nowadays we can always hear parents giving some kind of reward for their children when they do well in exams? Some even make a deal to have something, eg. Hand phone to score high in exam... it sounds funny but that happens in all families in our modern world... I guess its another 'Modern Society Illness'....

I don't really fancy these kind of deals, because

"we don't study for MONEY, isn't my friend?"
-Chin YZ, 2009-

我决定,放弃了。。。

或许过了太久,也或许不适合,无论是什么原因,我决定放下了。

朋友将是我们永远的标题,或许真的好像王力宏所说的,

两个人,不等于我们。。。


Listening now: Not Ready For Goodbye by All-4-One

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Discovering life perhaps

Clock is ticking
time is near
SPM results
feared by most
but not me

at this point of my live, I just want to discover more about what my talent is, rather than caring about what the society expects from me, yet I'm well trained by this modern society, to study, to behave, to follow like a dog.

Why? What's life suppose to be? What it suppose to meant? perhaps someone call Jesus can answer my questions, that people called GOD. I dont know much about him but I must admit he certainly helped lots of people in life to have a spirit support.

No matter what my results will turn out to be.... I'm still very me, the one that being so different from normal teenagers.... Hope to persue something that even I'm not sure and cannot forsee... perhaps that's what life is....


conclusion: just being emo now, doubting about myself and my life, or the most of all, what's my aim in life?

Friday, February 27, 2009

Thank You!

I logged in to my friendster and

did check out the pictures that I uploaded last time

and this really hold my breath,

and think,

how wonderful my secondary life was,

because I have friends,like you,

that made my journey something special and meaningful,

to be part of my greatest memories of all,

that I may retell to my kids in future,

I WAS SOMEONE BEFORE...


Thank you Jing,
to be part of my memories,
its been a really special opportunity in my life,
to be able to go through all kinds of bitter sweet with you,
you're truely a sweetest person I've ever met,
and I wanna tell you I'll be there for you,
anytime,
anywhere,
I'm not lesbian, but just wanna let you know,
that I really sayang you...
love ya dear!

I Miss You so much!!!
sob sob...
don't you ever dare to forget about me!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Passionate to be a leader?

I went to some friends blogs, and I found many of them is passionate about something... but in deep I don't think I'm passionate about anything.... really.... not ANYTHING....

Lately, I've always been thinking about what should I study, who should I be, where should I head to during SAM and after SAM, and most importantly, WHO AM I? I don't even know what I'm worth.... sounds quite dummy but there's a little voice that tells me that I want to be someone BIG, someone SPECIAL, someone INFLUENTIAL ... but I don't know where and when will I'm going to be able all these 'dreams' but I think that makes me a L-E-A-D-E-R.

There's always new opportunity pops out in my life, lately, for example, today, there's a MODELING SEARCH competition or hunt camp sort of thing... of course people will ask someone that is tall... like me... btw the objective of the event is to start off a star life.... I don't know do I have a star quality, but I like to sing. live had not pulled me out from music, but did made me being outdated... another very good reason for me not going to this is I don't have the popularity as a star or someone popular, I was never a popular person....

How am I going to be a leader? I don't know, at least that's the most I could think out of myself.... for now, I can only work hard enough to get myself get out of this country, by a scholarship, or else I don't think I will have any chance to open my eyes and learn what's life or more importantly, how I want my life to be... I WANT SCHOLARSHIP!!! or I should say
I NEED SCHOLARSHIP,
100% SCHOLARSHIP
TO OVERSEAS!!!!

Friday, February 13, 2009

勇敢往前飞

我就要 勇敢往前
过往的伤痛 不再理会
无法再用力挣扎 屏着呼吸
放开才真正得到机会


我就要 勇敢往前
闭上眼 不让自己流泪
翻开美丽的日记 重新准备
开始故事的另一页
我不后悔
我不后退

失败

今天,自己感觉彻底的失败。因为在同一天里,我失败了两次。。。

  1. 看着2008年的Fourian Magazine,真的真的很伤心,里面竟然一个华文文章都没有。。。Ainaa 还称呼我是 Head Of Articles,真可笑。里面我用心搜集的文章一张都不在, 反而那些 ‘她较熟悉的朋友’ 的文章都出现了。。。那当然,我的文章是一定不在的啦。。。对今年的校刊,我只可以说是我最不满意的一本校刊了。 不管真么样,我还是得说一句,今年的照片很有素质,毕竟Ainaa and Farhanis are great photographers。。。 除了这个,我也没什么好说的了。。。 其他的由你自己来评吧!
  2. SAM Student Council Election, 我输了。。。虽然说我不是很在乎到底可不可以拿到 Committee Member 的位子,但看着其他没作 Flyers 而得到位子的人,感觉自己的人气有点差。。。心里酸酸的。。。
不管真么样,事情已经是事实,我无法改变的定局。。。我自可以让自己再努力,再卓越一点,那些失败也许就不会再重复。。。

Friday, January 30, 2009

CNY Eve's Steamboat

Everybody seems to be busying on own stuff rather than eating... somehow.... lol...
no abalone already I think that's why.... haha....

Say we are 3 sisters... Ah Ma will love it!! LOL

Wee!!! We have more than we can eat you know!!!

Christal and Charlotte sat on their little table next to the not so big table....
and they have everything ready in pairs!!! Real Twin Twin Day!!!


Our 'tuan yuan fan' actually took placed in the evening because restaurant is opened as usual, so that was a super early dinner, about 4 p.m., if I'm not mistaken. Well, although the dinner made unusual early, we had a super feast! The soup was prepared by our chefs at the restaurant plus Ah Po's super chicken soup... yum yum! We ate abalone first, then prawns, fishes, meat balls, fish balls, sotong balls, sausages, sea cucumber, ju fai (some internal organs of pig's... I didn't eat much BTW) and many more.....

We all Chin's in Malaysia would wish everybody have a
Happy Chinese Niu Year and most of all may the year
bring good health and wealth to all!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

ECA Day

Today was the ECA Day (Extra-curricular Activities) in Taylors. Clubs and society are all over the place. I didn't expect what clubs to join but at the end I ended up signing up for quite a number of clubs:
  1. Music Club, with Melvina and Melissa
  2. SPA (Society of Performing Arts, which I looked forward to go)
  3. Debate Club (could be interesting)
  4. Leaders Club ( you might thing it's stupid but they provide funds and advice to whatever activities that you wish, isn't it cool?)
  5. Ultimate Frisbee Club (might not go because the practice is in KDU College, so far!)
  6. Environmental Club (A club that I went back and signed up)
  7. Film Appreciation Club (cool when I'm in the movie mode)
I think that's all I've signed up, plus the student council thing... I must be crazy if I attend all but I'll see how things go and decide which to be active in.... love The Big Day!!!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Forever Busy Life

Life had been busy ever since SAM started and I don't really have much time to do my personal stuff, including my blogging. Although this is what I might need to sacrifice but I think the journey that I'm going through now may be my best foundation to adapt the real world outside there.

I've just finish my Accounting Assignment (Simulation Study) and I feel exhausted, not because of the workload but the work done to correct other people's work. Is not easy being a part of the group that are not as serious as me when it comes to perfection but I must bear with that and to suffer myself, rather my marks being pulled down by others. I guess is just a part of life cycle?!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Here In MY Home

Today's the 2nd lesson for Malaysian Studies(LAN) and it really changed the point of view I see this subject. Mr Ikwan showed us this video, Here In My Home which is a video that I knew it but really make me thought of something deeper than that, as a Malaysian.


I'm a chinese that likes Bahasa Melayu a.k.a Bahasa Malaysia. When I'm travelling out of Malaysia, I really feel that I have this hidden duty to promote to the outside world that Malaysian doesn't stay on tree tops!!!

To me, UNITY seems impossible with the input that the goverment enforce into the mindset of youngsters nowadays. I honously don't like the fact Malaysian still faces the problem of RACISM where we still preference ourselves as Chinese, Malays and others rather than MALAYSIAN.

I mix with all races and treat every friend equally. That's what happening in daily lifes of majority Malaysians. I think. But at National level, our leaders and politicions still make the fact that WE CHINESE bla bla bla....

When can they wanna stop using that CHINESE word and perhaps change to something called MALAYSIAN??


In the context of society, this is what Pural Society is but do we want to hold our own race principles and not forming a true Malaysia Society?

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Fated to be A Leader?

Guess what? I'm the Assistant Class Representative for L2 this year. It was a democratic way of election but I don't know why my name was called and I got that job. Not to say I cannot be but is just that I feel why am I always been picked to be leader? I guess it's just fated that I'm an inborn leader... Guess that a good thing??!!

I guess for those that know me long enough will be thinking... aiya.... cheryl.... knew it la... am I right? LOL

Thursday, January 08, 2009

世界变了

SAM开始了,这意味着我人生正要开始另一个世界,一个我陌生、害怕的新世界。

在 Taylors, 每个人都似乎很强,老师们对我们的要求也十分的严格。 对我而言,这个新世界很复杂,每个人都面对着自己不同的难关,而我深深地感觉到我视觉的渺小。 我觉得自己还没有准备好面对我不确定的未来,但似乎每件事都等着我去处理、去接受。

面对着这些很不确定的心情, 我希望我可以,可以勇敢和有能力去解决。

钱、时间、知识,我是否能握紧呢? 我不知道,似乎和天在进行一个没人能担保的试验。。。我, 说真的很害怕未来,但是我没有时间,没有资格去蹉跎岁月,因为我不能失败。 是对父母的交待,也为自己作出的决定负责。 生命不就是如此吗?

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

2nd day of college

It's been a long day today.... it started with economics... it was OK.... just simple and nice lecturer, Mrs. Soh... Little bit of intro about the course... hope economics is fun...

then the LAN was kinda not ON today and all of us went to the lecture hall kinda for no reason... me and SuZen meet Kingsley( kinda nice name I think ) and we went cafeteria to hang out before the next class...

English was next up and the mentor of ours, Mrs Julianne came and also did some intro on the course structure....

there was an hour break then and there's where I did a mistake.... Melissa decided to buy her books so I did went to check out with her.... I meet Xavien Ang and his friend.... selling their books and showed me their maths books... it was ori but not fancy neat kind of looking, plus the pass years and lots of notes together.... Xavien's friend sold it to me with RM100... I thought it was a real bargain as others buys at quite a high price.... until we went back to class after lunch...

I bought the 1st edition mathematical studies' text book instead of the 2nd edition... so mine is older... duh.... and thicker.... also the questions are a bit different, according to miss soh la.... now I don't really know how different will mine be....

Legal Studies was quite hectic.... the way MR VJ told us is quite scary.... but the fun part that I think is the Moot Court where the whole class will demo a court environment with judge and lawyer and stuff.... cool huh?!

The last subject for today was the Accounting Studies.... Our lecturer was Miss Sydney Yong... She looks fierce but I think I should be alright with her... she's kinda straight forward type of people so don't mess with her.... She's a Hakka too.... that's was makes me happy and had more attention from her... She assigned me to photocopy notes and now I don't know where should I go to photocopy all those stuff... Sigh... Hope I'll be fine in college....

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Sick Week

I think I should delete the last post because that was just the appetizer of the whole flu week. Why must I get sick right before I want to start college.... Gosh.... I got Fever, Flu, Cough, Sore Throat..... ALL-IN-ONE sick!!!! but at least now I'm recovering and hopefully I should be alright by Monday for the orientation....

Oh ya... for those that didn't know.... I took SAM( South Australian Matriculation) as my Pre-U programme and starting on Monday, 5th January 2009. I think that's practically what I'm gonna be spending most of my time with this year...

Don't feel like writing now... I hope college would be fun! ^^